So last night I had a pessimistic dream about my upcoming IVF/PGD cycle!!! I dreamed that I had my embryo retrieval and only had 3 eggs retrieved total. In my dream (and IRL) I kept thinking that I should have gotten 10-15 eggs based on my age and high fertility. But in my dream (and IRL) I knew that those factors don't always mean anything during an IVF cycle! I was very sad and disappointed! However, on the bright side, in my dream I sent the 3 off to GSN and had 2 come back abnormal and 1 come back normal and the 1 normal embryo happened to be a girl!!! Despite being happy that I had a girl to transfer, I remember being sad b/c I wanted to have at least one "spare" to put on ice in case the first cycle didn't work. B/c in my dream (and IRL) I realize that the odds of being a OHW are slim to none. So I was sad not to have a back-up embryo.
What does this dream tell me??? That I dwell on IVF/PGD TOO MUCH!!!! lol. If I am dreaming such detailed dreams then I really think about it too often! I gotta relax a bit! haha
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