Got a serious case of Baby Fever today... cannot stop thinking about how excited and anxious I am to get started with this IVF process so I can be pregnant with my dream daughter! Not sure I can even stand the month long wait I have left before my IVF consultation!!! Let alone another 4 months or so after that! I really want to get started ASAP! Kinda glad I pushed my consult to the end of July b/c if it were sooner I would probably be wanting to get pg even sooner than I physically can already! Geez! The good thing is that I think my DH is willing to CONSIDER bumping up our start date. Not sure how much sooner he is willing to get started, but I hope we are on the same page when it comes that time that I cannot stand to wait any longer!
I think getting my cycle back has added fuel to the fire. Knowing that I was ovulating last week for the first time in 2 years was a really emotional experience. I was excited to know that I am fertile again. Bummed to know AF will be coming to visit in 2 weeks. And nostalgic knowing that the last time I ovulated I became pregnant with my DS! What a miraculous time that was! The last OPKs I peed on before the ones last week were the ones that helped me conceive my amazing son. So special! So emotional!
Kinda makes me wonder what this egg would have become had I "fertilized" it! lol. Maybe it would have been a girl! And all of this IVF planning would have been pointless. Maybe I would have gotten my dream daughter without all the pain and money that IVF costs! Geez. This process is full of "what ifs".
I hope I can stand to wait a little longer before starting IVF!!!
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