Friday, September 30, 2011

...STILL WAITING...

Soooo.... I was told by Genesis that I should get my results today. Well... it is almost 2pm and still NO NEWS!!! Grrrr.... The suspense is killing me!!!!

In other news... only 2 weeks until I start Lupron for my FET!!! Assuming I have something to transfer that is...

So many "what-ifs"! I hate the unknowns! I just want to KNOW if I have any healthy baby girls waiting for me!!! I am going CRAZY with the waiting!!!! lol

I'll post if I hear something... but I am starting to doubt whether it will be today... Probably going to be Monday I guess.... **sigh**

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Monday, September 26, 2011

Biopsy Update!

Got an update today from my RE's nurse about my embryos!!! Out of the 11 embryos we had fertilize successfully with ICSI, 9 of them made it to day 5 (blastocyst stage) and were biopsied and frozen! Now we just need to wait on Genesis to get the results back to us! My RE's nurse said it would be 7-10 days before we get the results, but the Genesis Laboratory Coordinator told me to expect results 24-48 hours after they receive the samples. So HOPEFULLY I won't have to wait any longer than Wednesday for the PGD report!!! I am STOKED about 9 having survived!!! I never expected over 80% of my embryos to make it this far!!! Now, if only they could surprise me AGAIN and all be healthy (and female?!?!)!! That would be amazing!!! I am just praying for 1 or 2 healthy girls! But more would be awesome, too!!!!

The bad news though (never that good of news without some bad news, too!) is that my period having started on Saturday has set us back 3 weeks to start our FET. BOO!!! Now I do not start Lupron until Oct 14th. And then within 2 weeks I'll get my next period. And 20 days later I will get my transfer. So sometime around the middle of November will probably be our first FET. It seems like SO far away from now! But it will be here sooner than I know I'm sure. I am just going to try to enjoy these 3 needle/med-free weeks and hopefully time will pass quickly!

Next update will be the BIG one!!!! HOW MANY HEALTHY GIRL EMBRYOS WILL WE HAVE?!?!?! =)

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Samesies!

Same Story... Different Day!

Just continuing to think about my embies today!! Today would be the last day that they stand a chance of becoming blastocysts and getting biopsied/frozen! As of tomorrow it is all up to fate! I HOPE we will hear news tomorrow, but I'm starting to think it will probably be more like Tuesday (if not Wednesday). This has been the LONGEST week in the history of weeks! lol.

Come on Baby Girls!!!!!

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Grow Embies!

So I have been thinking about my Embryos a lot today!!! Today is Day 5... so HOPEFULLY a few of the 11 we started with have made it to blastocyst stage today and are being biopsied and freezed!!! Some may make it to blastocyst stage & freeze tomorrow, too! They say the "slow growers" are girls. So lets hope we have a FEW that make it tomorrow! lol.

I kept busy most of the morning, but since DS has been napping (3+ hours now) I have been having a hard time keeping my mind off my "babies". I just hope they are being well taken care of and are growing like they should!

I probably won't get the results from Genesis until Tuesday, but if I'm lucky I might hear something on Monday. If I'm SUPER unlucky, it won't be until Wednesday (that would SUCK!).

I am praying that we at least end up with 1 healthy girl embryo!!!

As for FET dates... that is getting more and more complicated by the day!!! I had some bright red bleeding last night, and called the service and my RE thinks that I am starting my period! I was supposed to start Lupron on CD 21 for my FET. Which WOULD HAVE BEEN Wednesday. But now that today is technically CD 1... do I have to wait 21 more days before starting Lupron? That is the first question I will be emailing my RE's nurse on Monday! lol. I will update as soon as I know more about the dates issue!

A Picture of a Blastocyst! Lets hope I have some of these!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Update Time

So much has happened since I last updated! I keep forgetting to post here since I post almost everything on GD!

Well, out of the 49 eggs I had retrieved, 31 of them were mature. Out of those.... 17 were FROZEN as eggs... and 14 were fertilized. Out of the ones fertilized, 11 were still growing on Tuesday morning. So that is the last I have heard about my embies and as far as I know that is the last I will hear until Genesis gives the report to RBA. Which could be 7-10 days. But Genesis assured me that once they get the biopsies it would be 24-48 hours before I hear results. They said that they "don't like to keep customers waiting". So that is good. I would say that means I should hear the news by Monday or Tuesday.

Then on Wednesday (9/29) I start the FET protocol. It is approx 2 weeks of Lupron and then a period. Then a bunch of other meds for 20 days before the actual transfer! It is a little bit more flexible than the fresh "harvesting" cycle. So I would *guess* my FET will be end of October/beginning of November! I have mixed feelings on this! On one hand, I cannot wait to be done with this whole process! But on the other hand... once I'm pregnant I possibly get to suffer through 18+ weeks of morning sickness and other miserable 1st trimester sensations... Bleck... Maybe I'll get lucky and get pregnant on my first FET AND not get any morning sickness! HA. A girl can dream, right?

Now, as for my 17 frozen eggs. That was drama... The last time I spoke with Dr. T... I had 27 follicles on my u/s and he was guessing 20ish would be mature and said that since I will not get too many more than 20 eggs that we would NOT be freezing any. Well, that day I THOUGHT I made it clear that I was relieved b/c I had changed my mind and did NOT want to freeze ANY eggs no matter what. And I KNOW for a fact, that I told the RE who actually DID my ER that I did NOT want her to freeze any. I remember saying, "Fertilize all of them". Even Jay can confirm that I said that. He knows we made that clear. Well, when I found out that they had frozen MORE THAN HALF... you can imagine how upset I was. I cried all afternoon. All during the 6 hour drive home from Atlanta. I was very upset. Dr. T called me and said we must have "gotten our wires crossed", b/c he thought that if I got over 20 it was assumed we would freeze the excess. Well, that still doesn't explain why MORE THAN HALF were frozen. If anything, they should have frozen anything over 20. So fertilize 20, and freeze the remaining 11. I have no idea who made the call to freeze so many, but I sure as hell hope that out of the 11 I still have growing at least 1 or 2 of them is a healthy girl. Dr. T has already agreed to cover any costs for thawing and PGD'ing the frozen eggs if we need to use them since it was against my wishes to freeze them.

Anyway, enough blabbering about that. I just HOPE that everything goes perfectly and these 11 embryos go on to make at least 1 healthy girl and she becomes our sticky baby!!!

Monday, September 19, 2011

49 Eggies!

My ER was this morning and it went well!!! At my last scan before ER, I had 37 follicles, but today at ER they were able to retrieve 49 eggs!!! I cannot believe it!!! No wonder I have been feeling full, bloated, achey, and just plain miserable the past 2 days! I am not even sure how it is physically possible to have 49 eggs, but I guess it is!!!

I'm cautiously optimistic! I realize that sometimes a greater quantity does not necessarily equal high quality. When the RE brought up the issue of freezing some eggs I told her "no", that I wanted all of my eggs fertilized. I just feel like my eggs have a LOT to go through and I want the highest odds that we will get some healthy XXs at the end. They have to survive fertilization, survive 5 days of in vitro growth to reach blastocyst stage, and then be tested normal on all levels by CGH. Honestly, I would feel blessed to have at least 2 healthy XXs after all of that. So we shall see how everything goes.

I am trying to take it easy today. I realize that this many eggs puts me at high risk of OHSS. I am trying to rest, stay off my feet, drink gatorade, eat salty foods, drink protein shakes, and my RE also put me on Dostinex which I started Saturday evening. I am just praying that I stay nausea-free. So far so good, but I know that I might still have some of the IV meds running through my body.

Keeping everything crossed for some healthy XX embryos out of the "litter"! lol

Sunday, September 18, 2011

ER in the AM!

Well, getting ready to turn in for the night! Getting up bright and early for my egg retrieval in the morning!!! My ER is at 9am, but I have to arrive at RBA by 7:30am. I am super ready to have the ER over with! But I am super nervous about the possibility that I might have ovulated all my eggs away before ER time. I just hope the RE was taking good care and me and knew what he was doing to prevent this from happening! Out of 37 follicles I really hope I get at least 20 mature eggs. Wishful thinking maybe, but a girl can dream!!! I also am nervous b/c the last time I went under anesthesia was when I had my wisdom teeth removed in 2002. I did not tolerate the anesthesia well. I vomited profusely for 24 hours straight. I seriously hope that dose not happen this time. I just want to hurry up and be done with this whole process and be pregnant with my baby girl! Please, oh please, let this process be quick and painless!!!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Trigger Complete!

Just injected my Lupron Trigger!!! Hooray for only having to give a SQ shot instead of IM for trigger. 36 hours and counting!!!!!!! 9am on Monday cannot come fast enough!!! Also took my first Dostinex with dinner. Started drinking protein shakes, gatorade and eating saltier foods, too! Trying to avoid OHSS! Taking DS to the Children's Museum tomorrow on my day off from appointments and injections! Woot!!! Sooooo excited!!!

Triggering Tonight!

So the past 2 days have been crazy!

I was SO certain I would be triggering on Friday night to have ER a day early, on Sunday, but that was not the case! Boo. I was bummed b/c I wanted to get to go home a day earlier than expected! Oh well! I'm over it!

Yesterday's monitoring appt: My E2 was 2698 and I had 36 follicles!!! 22 on my left, and 14 on my right.

Today was my last monitoring appointment as I'm planning to trigger tonight! My E2 was 5400!!! I had 37 follicles. 22 on my left still, and now 15 on my right! Though based on the actual measurements, only about 21 are mature. That is good I guess. I mean, I want as many as I can get to have a better shot of getting some normal girls, but I do not want TOO many b/c my RE is concerned with having too high of an excess of eggs.

The plan is to fertilize all of the eggs and wait until day 5 (blastocyst stage) to biopsy and freeze them. Biopsies will be sent to Genesis lab for full-panel PGS screening. They said that within 24-48 hours I should hear the official news of how many normal boys and girls I have!!! Let's pray that I get a good amount of normal XX eggies!!! I told Jay to start "thinking pink"!!! I know that I have been calling my follicles "The Girls". Maybe a bit optimistic, but a girl can dream, right?

Unfortunately, Dr. T is not the "on-call egg retrieval doc" for Monday... so Dr. E will retrieve the eggs instead. According to my nurse, she is an "excellent egg sucker"! So I hope she wasn't "just sayin' that".

Tonight I take my Lupron trigger shot and tomorrow I have NOTHING!!!! No doctor's appointments... no shots... Nothing!!! Just a free day to spend with my husband, my baby boy, and my helpful father! I think we're going to go to the Children's Museum nearby.

After ER on Monday, I think I have to take it easy, and then I get to GO HOME on Tuesday!! YAY! I miss my puppy and my bed and my house and all my stuff!!! I surely hope all of this has been worth it and I get a beautiful baby girl in the end!

Oh, and here is a picture of my lovely left ovary full of 22 "girls"!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

1st RBA Appt!

So I had my first monitoring appointment actually AT RBA in Atlanta! It went well! My E2 today was 2156 and I had 27 follicles (9 right, 18 left).

We discussed dates for my FET and we plan to start using THIS current cycle. So, assuming I have a healthy XX to transfer, I will begin Lupron on 9/28 and ET will be sometime around the end of October/Beginning of November.

We discussed my current number of follicles, and he is not planning to freeze any of my eggs at this point. He said he really only considered if it I had gotten way more than 20 eggs, but since I'll probably get 20 (give or take) we are going to fertilize ALL of the eggs and give them all a fair shot at becoming my future baby girl! I was SO relieved to hear that we will be fertilizing ALL of them! I was very skeptical of the idea of freezing my eggies.

I discussed my insomnia (which has been out of control, I got maybe 2 hrs of sleep last night) and he was amazing and wrote me a script for Xanax to take at night. I hope this helps me to finally get a good night's sleep! And best part is that he said it will not negatively impact any of my eggies for me to take the Xanax for sleep. Whew! I wouldn't risk it if that were the case!

What else? Hmm... I think that covers pretty much everything from today! I'm going to go try to take a NAP! ZzZzZzZz

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

CD 6 Appt

Just got back from my CD 6 appt (4 doses of Gonal-F 225u given thus far). I will update later what I know what my E2 and TSH levels were... assuming they actually drew the TSH this time. I'm a bit skeptical b/c she only drew 1 vial of blood and I think she would have drawn 2 if she had gotten the order to draw a TSH today as well. Whatever! They'll draw it eventually I'm sure!

OK, so my follies!!! I had 16 so far today! 10 on the left and 6 on the right. They ranged in size from 9mm-15mm. Most of the were 11 or 13. A few 9s and I think 2 or 3- 15s. Which she said is normal to have a couple of "lead follicles". So according to the nurse I am exactly where I should be after 4 shots! Which was good to hear! She predicted that I'll have around 20 follies when I go for ER since there were a few smaller ones that she did not bother measuring. Whew! What a relief to hear that I am responding and everything is going well! Lets hope the blood work comes back good as well.

And on a side note... nobody ever mentioned how PAINFUL it can be to have them measure your follicles! I swear she was prodding me so hard with that u/s wand. My toes were curled as I bit my tongue and tried to bear it. lol. At least next time I am prepared!

UPDATE: Just got the news that my Estrogen level was 839. I don't know much about that so I'm trusting the nurse and she said I was "right on track"!

She didn't mention my TSH level, so I'm going to assume the local RE didn't see the order they faxed and thus didn't draw it. SO I still have no idea what my thyroid is doing right now. Hopefully they won't cancel me last minute based on those results! But since I'm responding well and I'm NOT transferring an egg this cycle (freezing all) I do not think it's a big deal. Maybe I'm just being optimistic! lol

SOOO I started Ganirelix (like, literally, she said take my 1st shot as soon as I finished reading the email... so I did.) and I take that daily in the morning. Staying on the same dose of Gonal-F still in the evenings. And I do NOT need a monitoring appointment tomorrow (YAY!) but I will need to be IN ATLANTA for my appointment on Thursday with RBA. So we are driving up tomorrow! YAY! It's getting more and more real every single day!

Friday, September 9, 2011

First Injection Complete!!!

WHEW! Just finished my FIRST Gonal-F injection!!!! I swear, despite having given thousands of SQ injections at work in the past, I was shaking like a leaf getting ready for my injection!!! The kit they gave me had this cool tiny square ice pack and I placed that on the spot for a few minutes before injecting and I swear that thing was a miracle-worker! I didn't even feel it!!! Yay!!! My first injection is done!!! So excited!!! 1 day down... 10+ more to go! lol

Initial Visit!

So I had my initial visit this morning with the local RE. They sent all of my results to my actual RE at RBA and I just got the call from my nurse! My Estrogen was 33. Which she said was normal. My pregnancy test was negative (whew!). And I had no cysts on my ovaries. She forgot to add my TSH to the orders, so I am not sure what that is, but she did not seem too concerned with it. She just said Dr. T would want to see it come down some. So I guess it is no biggie!

I get to start my Gonal-F 225u SQ tonight at 9pm! I repeat this every night and my next appointment is Tuesday at 7:15am with the local RE. After this appt they will decide if I need to come up for the following appt (CD 7) or if I can go one more time to the local RE. But for sure I will need to be in Atlanta starting CD 8 and up until after embryo retrieval (tentatively Sep 19th).

Giving myself a SQ injection for the first time ever tonight!!!! Yikes!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Let The Fun Begin!

AF has officially come to visit!!! That means today officially starts DAY ONE of my first IVF cycle!!! My initial monitoring appointment is tomorrow (9/9) at 9:45am! (that's a lot of 9s!) My tentative Embryo Retrieval date is Monday 9/19. I am well aware that this date is subject to change based on the maturity of my follicles, but it still feels crazy to be talking actual dates!!! I am planning to take my dad with me to Atlanta starting next Wednesday night (9/15) and we'll stay until ER is complete. Jay will be joining us during the weekend and possibly staying until ER. However, if ER keeps getting pushed back then Jay will have to return home to go to work. He can miss 1-2 days, but cannot miss an entire week! I am SO nervous about spending a week alone with just my dad and my 15 month old son! More than anything, I am nervous about trying to survive a 5-6 hour drive with DS in the car. He is a HORRIBLE car-rider. I guess I just have to keep the end-result in my head and try to stay calm and flexible!

The next big question will be... WHEN will we go back for our FET? I, myself, am wondering the SAME thing!!! Of course I would love to go back as soon as possible! However, several weddings are getting in the way. One of which is out of state for me. It all depends on whether or not my RE can "manipulate" my next period for timing purposes. If I can start AF in time I could possibly squeeze one FET in before the Nov 5th wedding. We shall see. I cannot wait to be pregnant with my baby girl! It seems like such a dream, but to make it a reality seems crazy!

Oh, and I forgot to add, I still have to get my TSH re-drawn tomorrow. If it is still too high I guess they might cancel my cycle. How bad will that suck after getting SO excited about everything? SO BAD! FX that does NOT happen!!! lol