Saturday, October 22, 2011

1 week of Lupron- Down!

Well, I have officially been on Lupron for over a week!!! I am VERY happy that I do not notice any side effects from the medicine! Even the injection sites are not bothering me at all! No bruises, and you can really only see the pink injection "hole" for a day or so before it disappears! I can't even tell where I've injected and where I haven't!

I know I should be 100% optimistic about everything, but my biggest fear is that I will not EVER get AF. They said that I should have a period within 2 weeks of starting Lupron. 2 weeks will be next Friday. So what happens if I do not get a period by then? Will I continue to inject 10 units of Lupron daily until she shows? Which may be days... weeks... months? Or will they give me some medication that will trigger AF to start? I do not know the answer to these questions and I truly hope I do not have to find out! PLEASE oh PLEASE let AF start no later than Friday!!! I will be one happy girl if she does!!!

Lately I find myself (during DS's naptime, my only down time! lol) dreaming about what my future daughter will be like... Will she have my dark brown hair? Or light copper-ish hair like DS? Or something completely different? Will she have my brown eyes? DH's hazel eyes? Or grayish blue eyes like her brother? Will she be born with lots of hair, like me & DS? Will she be born with a tiny bit of peach fuzz? Will she be a baldy (oh please no! I love hairy babies! lol)? Will she be born with blazing red hair like DH when he was a newborn? Will she have my eye shape? My nose? My mouth? My build? Or DH's? Will she look like her big brother? Or will she look completely different? What will we name her? Will it be one of my "favorites" on our name list right now? Will something completely different appeal to me by then? Will she be born early? Late? Right on time? Or 1 day before her due date (like DS)? Will she be super squirmy in my belly like her brother? Or will she be calm and gentle in my belly? Will I get horrible morning sickness (again) or get the pleasure of a nausea/vomit-free pregnancy (yes, please?)? Will I gain the same amount of weight this time as I did last time? Less? More (yikes)? Will my furbaby- princess take to her better than she did when we brought DS home from the hospital? Or will she get depressed again and require antidepressants (please no!)? Will I deliver vaginally at the hospital? Require a C-section (no please)? Have a surprise delivery at home (haha)? Will I require an epidural again? Will it work better this time? Or will I tough it out and go au-natural (doubtful)? What outfit will I put her in first? Will it be pink (yes!)? Will it have princesses, fairies, unicorns, or flowers on it? Will she have enough hair for a bow? Will she need a soft pink beanie if she's bald (lol)? Will she be as SWEET as her brother? Will she love her mama as much as her brother? Will she give me sweet baby hugs and kisses when she learns how? Will she be talkative? Or super active? What will her favorite animal be? Will she enjoy shopping? Car rides? Stroller rides? Baby-wearing?

I could go ON and ON (even more than I already have!)...

The point is... I'm ready for this waiting game to end. I'm ready for the doubts and pessimism to go out the window. I'm ready to be healthily pregnant with my baby girl. No matter what the answer is to all of my questions, I'm just ready to get to know her (from the inside of my belly to the outside!). I'm ready to KNOW that she will exist one day.

I'm ready.

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