Monday, February 6, 2012

1 more day before POAS!

So tomorrow is the BIG day when I'll POAS and find out whether or not this worked and whether I am pregnant!!! In lieu of the big occasion I have updated my "pros & cons" list with some more "signs". Here is why I am so internally conflicted about whether or not I believe this has worked:


Pros:
- Acupuncture (weeks prior and before/after ET)
- Good lining measurements
- Endometrial biopsy to help lining
- On Lovenox (however, con is blood clotting issues…)
- Meditating daily (Circle + Bloom & Anji)
- DH assisted in Atlanta during ET (no lifting/took it easy)
- Coin flip landed on heads (good)
- On PIO instead of Crinone for better progesterone absorption (although levels low… so not working??)
- Cramps in uterus (could be meds or coughing muscles are sore) & sore boobies (could still be meds)
- Ate pineapple core daily post ET & had cayenne pepper on egg mcmuffin before ET for luck
- Had a dream that I was holding my baby girl

Cons:
- Cold/persistent dry cough/ thick nasal congestion on day of ET and week during POAS wait
- Low hormones (progesterone & estrogen)
- High TSH
- DS very stressful on Wednesday post ET (2dp5dt)
- Poor looking embryo (although RE said it was "excellent quality"... I think it didn't survive the thaw in as good of condition as it went into the thaw, just my idiot opinion)
- MTHFR Deficiency & Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis medical issues
- Had a dream that pregnancy test was negative (superstition)

So... as you can see... I WANT to think positive and tell myself this worked... but there are many things against me, too. I have acupuncture again today so hopefully that'll help me relax a little. And I'm trying to stay busy today. It has been SO hard to wait until 8dp5dt!! I am very proud that I haven't caved yet and POAS! I thought I would! Actually, today is the biggest day that I resisted. But that's only b/c I forced DH to hide all my home pregnancy tests where I couldn't find them!!! But now that I've already had my FMU (and SMU) I'm not worried about caving. If I'm gonna POAS I'm gonna do it right and use FMU (first morning urine). 

Well, I'm UBER nervous and UBER excited. All of my family members think that this worked. But they do not really understand the process. DH and I are cautiously optimistic... 

WISH ME LUCK TOMORROW!

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